The REAL feature: I lost you

The real feature lets you express your feelings and share your story with us. Today's heartfelt comes from a 19 year old who wished to remain anonimous; here is what he has to share.

May : I promised…

Hello ! would you like a powerful cocktail ?

Sure ! is it really that powerful ?

Haha ! so strong that you will feel like you can’t breathe anymore…

She said yes. It began.

Beginning of our story, beginning of an awful bliss, beginning of your slow goodbye.

She was pretty and clever, smiling and nice. She was my girlfriend. I was not mean anymore, I was honest, so was she. She changed me in ways I never thought possible..

Spending time together, imagining our future, we both knew we were going to last.. Untill one decision changed our lives forever.

Why didn’t I come with you? Why did I let you go there? Why did I turn a blind eye?

How could one party, one day, one night ruin an entire life?

Was it my fault? His fault? Our fault…

You made the decision to do it , your blood accepted it.

You tried to face me, I turned away.
Every single day was hell, I ran away, I was not there; you rejected me, neglected me. I cried but you still remained a prisoner in it’s powerful grip.

Once again, it was over, but this end tortured me, still tortures me and will keep torturing me.

No rope, I should have cut it.

I was there to tell you goodbye, touching this piece of stone, where you slept, cold and grey, sad and angry.
This month of May was beautiful, this goodbye was dreadful.

You jumped, and I stayed motionless. You hung and I looked away.

You married heroin, a deadly union.

…And I will bring you some flowers, as much as possible.

His girlfriend tragically comitted suicide because she could not cope with her growing addiction to heroin, which her boyfriend found out only a week prior to her death. He is now learning how to re-build his life and let go of the guilt he feels for not being able to stop her. 

The only way for Bella and Edward is divorce

If there was ever going to be a continuation of the Twilight saga, Edward and Bella would have to divorce - says Robert Pattinson. Immortality does make your possibilities endless.  "I think it's technically possible," KStew said. "But I can't really answer that question. It's too sad." Others say they can only imagine Bella.... cheating! Being so young it seems like the only option... So would Bella go for Jacob? Tell ur what you think ;)

  

Selena Gomez stalker spoke to God about killing her

As if the the allegations of her boyfriend having a child were not enough, Selena now has a stalker who has allegely spoken to God about murdering her.
Thomas Brodnicki, has a history of criminal stalking, and tried to plead insane when the singer has filed charges against him.
She managed to get a restraining order and he is now locked in mental hospital.
Now lets see how she deals with Bieber not being able to keep his pants on for long ;)

What I think of this.

I have been following the news due to my job at my blog, and I must say I am so dissapointed by all of this fake drama and attention that some people crave. Kim Kardashians fake ( and yes, it was fake) wedding just shows how far would some people go for their 15 mins of fame and money.Couldnt they atleast pretend that it was real? Maybe if they made a sex tape their marriage would have lasted longer.
And how about a certain Mariah Yeater, who claims Justin Bieber is the father of her child? Well now atleast we finally know Justin is a male, but again, I believe this claim is fake and has been made only for her to achieve her 15 minutes of fame. She actually got me thinking - what if I go to The Sun tomorrow and tell them Harry Stylez got me pregnant? If anything, that will get him to notice me.
Sadly though, 17 year old Harry is snogging, going out for meals and just in general having a fun time with Caroline Flack, who just happens to be twice his age. Does anyone else see anything wrong with that or am I just jealous?
And all the X-factor drama does deserve a mention here. I think they realised nobody wants to watch them anymore, so voice became the least important thing on the agenda. With a completely new judging panel ( Louis seems to have grown roots that attach him to his chair and that is, im my humble opinion, the only thing preventing Simon from sacking him - he simply cant wrench him out.) there is more drama drama drama! Kelly is furious that Tulisa accused one of her acts of bullying, Gary Barlow is running around confiscating joints from Frankie and cupcakes from Craig while Louis ponders about the public's almost unanimous hatred for Kitty. Oh god.
So where have the good role models gone? I have just one question - is it really the things they would do have they not been famous? Or are they doing this to grab attention? Now in the case of Kim Kardashian this is clear, but the rest? Come on! And having said that, please sigh the petition to sack the Keeping up with the Kardashians show off E! television. Pretty please. Maybe then our brains will not be polluted with so much sh*t and we will start thinking about more important things.
Like the draught in the horn of Africa.
The Palestinian bid for statehood.
The Arab spring and the suffering endured by the people in the middle east.
I bet more of you knew about Biebers supposed kid than these problems.

Kim Kardashian is in BIG trouble.

Ok, so her marriage lasted a whole 75 days, but has she done it for publicity? Her mum fiercely argues no, however most of her friends say YES. Here's what Phillip Bloch ( Kim's close friend and Holywood stylist) had to say:
"It's embarrasing they couldn't keep up the charade longer. Everyone is fed up and nobody wants to hear about it anymore. She's caught up in the reality show syndrome She's a nice girl but she isnt wild - she's boring. She needed something to make the programme about, so she got married."
It seems like many people agree, since websites like boycottkim.com have launched, pleading people to stop buying her products. And official petition on GoPetition.com was also launched, aimed at the E! producers to cut her off the show.
People are saying that they have had "enough" and are "sick and tired of the whole charade".
Many companies that have affiliated with her have re-signed her, such as bebe clothing and TRIA hair salon.
And if that wasnt enough, sources claim she is also pregnant. Oh dear!

Justin Biebers Love child can cost him 30 million

Justin, who's image is relying on him being squeaky cleam has been involved in a love child scandal. A certain Mariah claims that he is the father of her three months old baby, and demands a paternity test.
She claims that their 30 second saucy encounter backstage ended up with her pregnant, however she can be in trouble for statutory rape since back then Justin was still a minor.
Pop-princess Selena Gomez is standing by her man and both she and Justin claim that the claim is false and unjustified.
If it is proven to be true, he will  have to pay child support , which will cost him around 15 million dollars. + He is very likely to loose many sponsorship deals, which could easily amount to the same sum. 30 million for 30 seconds? oooh baby....

Cher Lloyd wants nothing to do with Cheryl

Simon Cowell said that Cher could be bigger than her X-factor mentor,with whom she has bonded really well on the show, and many people are calling her Cheryl's mini-me.
However Cher replies :  "I don't speak to Cheryl, we have nothing to do with eachother, so will everyone stop asking me about her???"

Cher's album, "Sticks and Stones" has been released this week.

What does Kelly Rowland REALLY think of the X-Factor

The "Now" magasine met up with Kelly to discuss her recent ilness, feud with Tulisa and seeing both of her girls in the sing-off.
Here, we will give you a quick update on what she said about everything :

On her Illness:
"I'm feeling much better, thank you. The antibiotics did their job - my voice is still husky but I'm definetely on the road to recovery"

On Tulisa:
"We have disagreed that weekend. I believe what she said was unfair and it was the wrong timing for it. It would be a boring frigin lovefest if we all got on. If I believe that what someone said was wrong, I will say it"

On Louis:
"I love Louis and I squeze his butt all the time. I take advantage of his little booty"

On Gary:
"I've fallen in love with Gary. He's a great father, a great husband and a great human being.

On Dermot O'Leary
"I love Dermot. Me and him went dancing and he has some moves!

On Olly Murs:
"He has the cutest little butt I've ever seen. It distracts me. But his trousers are a bit tight, I'm like let the guys breathe down there!

On Simon Cowell:
"He gave me the best advice and told me to be honest. He's a very handsome guy, is he single?"

On Kitty Brucknell:
"Man, have you heard that girl sing? I'll be in my room, she'll be five floors down, and I could still hear her sing"

On Beyonce's baby:
No one deserves a child more. I'm so proud to become auntie Kelly :)

source - Now magasine.

The Kardashian's timeline

First Date

December 2010: Kim begins dating the New Jersey Net in December of 2010. Lala Vasquez, Kim's BFF and wife of pro baller Carmelo Anthony, told our Party Girl at the time: "All the NBA guys are good guys and my friends. I just want my friend to be happy, whoever it is....if that makes her happy, I'm happy."

Meet the Family!

January 2011: Soon after ringing in the New Year solo in Vegas, Kim joins Kris, his sister Kaela and his parents in Minnesota for dinner and makes quite the impression. "They think she is really nice, considerate and pretty," a source told E! News.

Birthday Boy

February 4, 2011: Kim helps Kris celebrate his 26th year by accompanying him to an intimate dinner with his mom and dad in Manhattan, where, according to a source, Kim graciously picked up the tab.

Family Bonding

February 18, 2011: Kris already seems like part of the family while spending time with Kim's sister Khloé and her hubby Lamar Odom as they make their first high-profile appearance in downtown L.A.

Double Date Night

March 8, 2011: The cute couple hang with Kim's step-brother Brody Jenner at the release party for Avril Lavigne's new album in NYC.

Long-Distance Love

March 24, 2011: Rumors run rampant that Kim is eyeing places to live in New York City so she can be closer to Kris, but the speculation is ultimately shot down.

We're Engaged!

May 18, 2011: After six months of dating and getting permission from Bruce Jenner, Kris pops the question to Kim at her L.A. home. The rock weighed in at a whopping 20.5 carats and Kim happily accepted. Her whole family helped the happy couple celebrate that night.

Registered!

June 14, 2011: The couple registers at ritzy Geary's of Beverly Hills. The list included "everyday" items like cereal bowls, crystal vases, pitchers and napkin rings, for a grand total of $172,000.

Another Engagement Party

June 16, 2011: Li'l sis Khloé Kardashian Odom threw a last-minute engagement party for the gorgeous duo at her L.A. home. Celeb guests like Lala Vasquez, Brittny Gastineau and L.A. Laker Jordan Farmar attended the shindig where they munched on sliders, chicken satay and cotton candy.

Kris Jenner's Pre-Wedding Prep

July 14, 2011: Momager Kris Jenner goes under the knife for a mini face lift to prep for her daughter's walk down the aisle. And in true Kardashian style, cameras are there to capture the procedure

Bridal Shower & Double Bachelor(ette) Parties

July 22, 2011: Mom Kris throws a bridal shower for Kim in L.A. Guests include Demi Lovato, Serena Williams, Mel B and Brittny Gastineau, while Kim's hubby-to-be stops by to help her open presents. They later take the party to Vegas where Kim and Kris have supposedly separate bachelor and bachelorette parties, but Kim can't resist making a quick cameo at his soiree.

Last Pre-Wedding Public Appearance

August 17, 2011: Just two days before they tie the knot in Montecito, Kris escorts Kim to her Kardashian Kollection launch party at the Colony in L.A. This is their final public showing together prior to getting hitched.

Married!

Aug. 20, 2011: They do! Before walking down the aisle, Kris sends out his last tweet as a single man: "This is it!" They tie the knot at a private estate in surrounded by family and friends, including Brody Jenner, Avril Lavigne, Lindsay Lohan, Eva Longoria, Ryan Seacrest, Julianne Hough, Kathie Lee Gifford, Mel B, Mario Lopez, George Lopez, Serena Williams and more.

Ring Cycle

Sept. 27, 2011: Tabloids go into overdrive when Kim and Kris are both spotted without their wedding bands, though the stars quickly deny rumors of a rift and claim that they simply do not wear jewelry while going to and from the gym—where most of the ringless shots were taken.

Something Brewing?

Oct. 26, 2011: A once-again solo Kim gets her Halloween on, dressing up as a witch at the X Factor viewing party

It's Over

Oct. 31, 2011: Bombshell! Within an hour of E! News confirming that the couple had split, Kim formally files for divorce from Kris in Los Angeles Superior Court, citing irreconcilable differences.

 

Porn Legend Sasha Grey says she will not quit reading to schoolchildren

Porn legend Sasha Grey says she will NOT back out of a national elementary school reading program -- despite pressure from parents -- claiming she will "not live in fear" of her XXX past.
SASHA'S STATEMENT:

"I am proud to have participated in the "Read Across America" program at Emerson Elementary School in Compton, CA. I read “Dog Breath” by Dav Pilkey to the sweetest 1st and 3rd grade children.

"Read Across America" is a program that was designed to promote literacy and instill a lifelong love of reading in elementary school students. Promoting education is an effort that is close to my heart. Illiteracy contributes to poverty; encouraging children to pick up a book is fundamental.

I believe education is a universal right. I committed to this program with the understanding that people would have their own opinions about what I have done, who I am and what I represent.

I am an actor. I am an artist. I am a daughter. I am a sister. I am a partner. I have a past that some people may not agree with, but it does not define who I am.

I will not live in fear of it. To challenge non-profit education programs is an exercise in futility, counter-productive and anti-educational.

I cannot thank my fans and 'Read Across America' enough for supporting my decision. Your support and kind words continue to inspire me. I believe in the future of our children, and I will remain an active supporter and participant in education-focused initiatives."

Thew Blow!

Guys, new blog. You should like this ;)
Blog is about everything creative and unusual in art.
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Australia Bans Cigarette Branding

Australian government has just passed a bill making cigarrete branding illegal - leaving pacts with nothing but graphic image of smoking-related diseases. Tobacco companies have been fiercely fighting against this policy, but it seems like they are fighting a loosing battle.
This decision has raised many questions, such as Is it ok to strip cigarettes of their logos, at taxpayers cost? Will it stop smokers buying them? Is alcohol going to be next?

Kelly's reaction to Frankie Cocozza's departure

It seems that Kelly Rowland didn't know that Frankie was off the Xfactor, so it came as quite a shock when a reporter from Showbiz 144 Lisa Snell broke the news for her. Watch and find out what happens!

new something?

I'm considering a news celebrity feature under the general ramblings. What do you guys think?

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England

Hello readers from England :) We just wanted to say that we are very very jealous of you - you have River Island, Miss Selfridge & Matalan.

Lifehouse - storm

If I could just see you
Everything would be alright
This darkness will turn to light.

Lifehouse never fails to amaze me. Their songs really touch your heart.

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The work to launch the blog is nearly complete guys! Rejoice ;) Check out Georgia's first post in the relationships column - it's now hers :D That doesnt mean that anyone of us can't write there whenever we feel like it. And yeah, if u want advice -- go for it in the comment section.
Raphy is currently working on designing looks and pulling together outfits that are in fashion right now & especially for you we will tell you how to achieve this look and where on the internet to find just the right place to shop for it.
As for me, I'm dealing with the layout of the blog ( yes, it WILL change, just give me time), updating the rambling section right here & and writing about events that you definetely don't want to miss.
Lots of love to you all x